So its been a while since i actually wrote on this thing. So to begin i am alive, but barely. This past week I caught my annual flu. Even though i got my flu shot back in October, like i typically do, i always get the flu in the first 2 weeks of March. I guess with the season changing my immune system is really week and i have to catch the flu, but at least it was as bad as last year when i had to go to the hospital. but the worst part was that i missed 3 days of work and missed a butt load of class because i couldnt move on monday but to go to the bathroom and on tuesday i slept till about 6pm after going to the doctors, o and all the hard work i put into tryin to gain weight went down the toilet and the fact of not eating. To make my tuesday night worst, my roommates popped their tire and i had to get up out of my bed to change the tire because they didnt have a jack and didnt know how to. Either way, i have been working really hard and been getting frustrated with myself and others. At work last week i put in 45hrs at the store and 20hrs at the church, by the way while everyone was chillin at the beach during there spring break i was busting my tail, so I've been running myself thin trying to do everything i am suppose to do. I've been so frustrated at work because this one kid name josh who is the oldest worker there but the slowest and dumbest one gets in everyone's way and is basically a bum who just is there to support the building. I get so angry with him when he talks about how he is leaving in this amount of time. It is so stupid for him because he doesnt understand that mostly everyone that works there is there so they can survive. The guy is 23 living with his parents and this is his first actual job, that he doesnt really need. He is set, his college is paid for with loans and grants and he doesnt have to pay bills like most of us. That just irks me when arrogant people like him are around, because he doesnt understand how good he really has it, but instead he has to complain about the work, when he does nothing. More importantly i have been getting frustrated with myself because i see some character flaws in me that ive been denying. First i have become so lazy, i know i dont have alot of time to just be like blah but i do anyways, and other stuff about me that i just dont like. So it has been really weird, i had alot of time to think to myself (when u cant really move from your bed for 2 days that happens, so i dont recommend doing it ever) but i just came across those flaws, and a event that happened last year that i really thought i couldnt recover from, but the fact that i remember it and that it still hurts bothers me.
So during the summer i will be gone. I will be working as a camp counselor in Starke, Florida, which is about 2hrs and 45mins east towards Jacksonville. It starts the beginning of June and ends towards the 2nd week of August, and my only week off i will be in North Carolina with my youth group. So that will be fun, but i feel somewhat upset that i will be gone the whole summer. More importantly when i come back i will be moving out of this devil's pit into a better apartment. Hopefully with a better roommate. Even though not all of them were bad, but because of one kid we are probably not getting our security deposit back, and i am surprised that no one has died of 2nd hand smoke from our other roommate. So i am thankful for finding a new place but worried about who i will be assign to living with next year.

PS sorry about how poorly written this is, but got done studying Statistics and goodness i could honestly major in Greek because of this.


Some more quotes

"Students who is Margret Brown" A four year old little girl replies "A person that wrote that book" -workin at the church with kids-

"Sorry to hear about your lost, if there is anything i can do just ask."
"its ok its not that serious"
"So what was the cause"
"Old age"
"When was dying at the age of 14 consider cause of old age"
"Woodrow Wilson Clary was my dog!"
"O, whoops. Foot-in-mouth moment"
"And here is a cold shoulder moment to tag along with that"
-Me and my friend Amy Clary-

"If you think i am a good little christian girl your sadly mistaken. You would be surprised at all the stuff i have done."
"I do not judge and i am sure u can not surprise me."
"You wanna bet"
"Yea."
"what makes u so sure."
"Because you go to church, you believe in God, and what not so there u go your a christian girl."
"I wouldnt say that much"
"Why not?"
"Because i am an atheist"
"Well in 5 words you just completely and totally made me fail at life"
-Me and a friend i met at a CHURCH event, that led to a 3hr long discussion on religions and philosophies-